Having too many things to care about is the way to not move forward.

I come from a rural background, and my family is very traditional.
My parents almost follow the same methods as the previous generation to run the household.
But there have been some changes, which is that during my growth, whenever I encounter something I think my parents are wrong about, I no longer repeat it in my own family.
The fate of rural families is either the parents win,
You live your life following their path,
Or you win, and go far away to live according to your own ideas.
If we consider that humans are destined to perish,
It’s hard to say which is better or worse.
After all, going far away doesn’t necessarily mean success,
It simply means you choose to walk your own path in your own way.
And for a rural kid to live for himself,
There are really too many things to abandon.
Endless arguments and pain.
In the end, I blocked my father,
Choosing a way of complete geographical and communication separation,
To continue pursuing my own path.
I can understand them,
But I need to do the right thing.
I need to focus wholeheartedly,
I need my life to be my own, with no one else’s manipulation.
Success or failure doesn’t matter that much.
So I didn’t go back home for the New Year this year.
I want to cut off the last psychological umbilical cord,
And face this world with an independent personality with all my might.
This is my opportunity to become stronger.
It’s funny to say,
A friend on his way to work
Said he was pressured to get married at home and was miserable.
I laughed out loud, feeling a bit schadenfreude, and said:
I consider myself as hard as steel, I wouldn’t dare go back.
The words of someone I care about can almost cut through any steel-heartedness.
I’ve experienced this firsthand, truly and definitely.
So I can only let go,
Let go of everything that blocks my progress,
Leaving only myself.
And I always remember that purpose:
I need my life to be my own, with no one else’s manipulation.